a bunch of old posts

25.11.09
A silent night has dawned again
Memories have revisited the subsided pain
With a bag of mixed feelings along
Life has been trying to find a new meaning to an old song
Some experiences are pleasurable, some hurt
Life has been showing new faces each with a new birth
Its difficult to understand
Whether mask is portraying behind the feelings
or is it the feelings portraying the mask


20.11.09
If you would have been there today,you would have seen
How unkind and wounding people have been
You would have sympathized and said,doesn’t matter im with you
and I would have flown away and drowsed in your love too
we would had been enjoying our special moments beautifully together
alas! Its not gonna happen ever.


16.11.09
There wont be a time when ill be able to tell you
And may be you would never understand
That’s how it should be may be
That’s what God has planned
Feelings doesn’t matter
Doesn’t matter if we ever meet again
Im collecting all the shadows together
While in solitude, I might again cherish the rain
Memories cost a lot
It costs a lifetime to nurture a single thought
I spent a millions to harvest what ive got
N yet to think of it,I never got what I sought
N so would be this time too
My memories and imaginations would always find you


15.11.09
Somethings are never meant to die
However hard we may try
The reminiscence would persistently kill us at the birth of each second
Why some feeling affect us so badly,no one can comprehend
Its been long since my dreams started dying
Since then ive been living on some begged breath,ive been buying
Sooner or later everything would end
Numbness taking over life moment by moment
Before I loose time,I wish to say goodbye
And I wish to behold you just once in my eye



13.11.09
As time moves on
The sea would cease to blend with the sky
Light would distinguish both the identities
And the lonesome heart would again be left aside
Drifting in hope and listening to the rising suns sigh
A new day would begin
Nothing would be the same that once met the eye
Feelings would feel a change
Once a beauty, might even feel estranged
long lost sleep,unblinking eyes would run dry
counting seconds every second



07.11.09
Once there was a time when loneliness killed
A time when life was a thrill
Now its just a desire to flow with the flow
Silent and slow

Colors are but mere reflections of unfulfilled desires
Xray vision prevents from any attractions or admires
The value of trust, honesty and love is difficult to know
When the cycle of breath ceases, how can we expect to grow

There never seems to exist any pain
Never would any tear wash along with the rain
Numbness has taken over each sorrow
A quiet today would lead to a quiet tomorrow


06.11.09
Her eyes are beautiful
Her hair falls beautifully too
N so seems to be so many of her qualities
But shes not you

Feelings feel to be the same
Memories effacing, just assuming a new name
Shuffling sides of the same game
Its difficult not to feel ashamed

Directionless life still continues
Numerous ends, doomed,no power to choose
a bruised heart still secludes
Yearning for a stagnant unchanging mood