if i write would you like to read how vulnerable ive become..
there was a time when you used to walk beside me n everything seemed to become alright..
but what now? its ultimate dark n im walking all alone..naked n numb..
there would be people laughing at me n mocking me..
they would beat me..hurt me..bleed me..
n i would just keep on walking as i have to..aimless n lost..
this would go on perhaps till every single drop of blood in my body would trickle down my cheeks..n you would just see
no one would ever remember the days that have gone..
none of them would ask where is that reverence wheres that faith now..
would just a faint smile be enough to determine the death of a few memories..

jaane kyu yaado se ab tak mann sharmsar hai
shayad kuchh beete pal ab tak meri tanhai pe udhaar hai
kaun kehta hai hame raat ke andhere se pyaar hai
hame to sirf apni parchhai ke mit jaane ka intezar hai

chori chupke kabhi zindgi ke chalne ki aahat sunte hain
kabhi baithe baithe aasmaan me khwaab bunte hain
aksar kai khayal jaane pehchane se milte hain
par sadiyo se lipte jazbaat phir bhi kabhi nahi pighalte hain

kya aisi bhi raat hogi jisme andhera nahi ho
jisme har pal ek nayi dastaan likhe, aur palko me sawalo ka pehra nahi ho
jiske paymane tay karte waqt bebasi ka basera nahi ho
aur jiske khwaabo ke aine me kisi purani justaju ka chehra nahi ho

some old msgs

aaj chaand bhi apni bebasi pe roya hoga..
shayad uski raat ko kisi andhere ne chhupa liya..
khamoshi ne awaaz me dard piroya hoga..
shayad kisi khwaab ne meri tanhai ko chura liya..

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kuchh yaado ki mithaas aksar apna zayka palko pe chhod jaati hai..
kuchh baate aksar aakho me nami le aati hai..
kuchh barisho aur kuchh haseen nagmo ka fasana tha..
par khwaabo ka kya hai,unko to ekdin jal hi jana tha..
mere astitva ki lehro me jo pal beh ke aa gaye the..
jinka muqaam meri khushi me ghar basana tha..
ek roz unhe sagar ki gehrai me ghul hi jana tha..
khwaabo ka kya hai,unko to ekdin jal hi jana tha..

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kuchh pal aur jee lene do yahi..
ab kuchh hi saase baaki hain..
maana ki yaha ab tumhari parchhai nahi..
par tumhari yaade roz yahi hamse milne aati hain.

kahi pe kaate kahi pe udaasi..
kahi ek maasoom zindgi zara si..
parchhaiyo me ulajh ke beet hi jaegi..
kahi raat to kahi subah si..