shwahzeh..

I know a girl who is just a common girl. A girl who doesn’t have any sky touching dreams, any un achievable fantasies, who doesn’t wana do anything extraordinary.

She is in fact a girl who is more ordinary than even ordinary. She just knows how to give love, unboundedly, unconditionally to everyone around. Never asking for return. A heart so pure, is really rarely found. N you know, she believes in God. Yes. She does. Unlike everyone around me, she has undoubted faith in God. N whenever she needs someone to talk to, or something to ask, she knows that only God understands her completely. God is Himself is her savior, her Guardian Angel.

She is a person brimming with values n morals. A person who, even in this 21st century, is still upholding the Indian culture, in which we regard our parents as God.

She has turned all her sorrows, to her strength and all emotions to building blocks of her foundation. Though she has a lot of life yet to live, yet, she has seen more of life than many of us. She is the perfect conglomeration of truth, love, hope, confidence, practicality, creativity, unity, optimism and , spirituality.

Wanting something, deserving something n getting something is easy, but…wanting something, deserving something, getting something n sacrificing that thing for someone is difficult. She is an epitome of kindness n love. Yet she is just a common girl. A girl, who can remind us of God.

She is a person who believes, she has everything, n yet owes nothing. Everything has been created by God, for God. She just plays the role of reaching out Gods love to those who needs it.

A person so ground to earth, yet so caring, so loving, always giving without any expectations, a person for whom feelings are more important than success or name fame or money, is rare to find. A person, who can mould the worst phase of life, to one of the best phases of life, is rare to find.

She has proved, that nothing is bigger than love. Nothing is higher than love. Nothing is superior to love. Love is success, Love is happiness, Love is eternity. N yet, she is a common girl.

it was when i just started flowing
exuberant energies,heart pounding
going through every minute corner of the way
roaring n splashing n experiencing breathtaking sway
tumbling over so many unidentified pebbles
passing through n through, through those binding shackles
n one day reaching the end of the earth
realizing life isnt always a mirth
falling down all the way from a hilltop sky
banging head on on the sea bed with squalling cry
yet moving on, though this time very lowly n slow
energies all submerged, still holding on n willing to go
passing through each step softly n firmly
making ground before stepping, gradually
but this time finding more insights n purity beneath
holding on n standing concrete
making twists n turns wherever needed
planning carefully, giving ample time to concede it
flowing on more confidently n strongly than before
yet faltered again, this time reaching the barren shore
theres no way ahead, may be i chose the wrong path
though im dying out of thirst, but i wont lose my heart
will try again, to find me
if struggle is in my destiny, then may it be
i wont stop, i wont give in
i wont get dry so early, i would still be moving
ill flow till the time i become a sea
till the time i would never have to flow again
when existence would just be a form of me
there would be no rocks against me
no hilltop pushing me down to fall painfully
when drowning in me would make everything eternal
when all would be one, no distinction,no boundaries
ill make it happen someday i know
ill make everything dissolve n flow
that would be a perfect world blended into one
the change has already begun..

an article by GANOBA

The two words Prey and Pray have come to mean the same thing in modern
parlance.
What an irony?
Pain and suffering are part of life. When we refuse to acknowledge
this truth, the vicious cycle of misery begins.
To complicate matters, we begin hold others responsible for our
suffering. Taking revenge to settle the score is the beginning of the
slide to hell.
Misery leads one to miserliness. We then begin to feel, that what we
have, is not enough. The strategy to deal with insufficiency is "beg,
borrow or steal". Pray or Prey. If we succeed in this strategy then it
gets reinforced. If we fail then we fall back on blaming others for
the failure.
Thus the vicious cycle is set into motion.
How do we get out of it?
The virtue of "santosh" is the liberator. Santosh means cultivating
the feeling that what ever we have is more than enough. Why more than
enough? Because, at all times we have enough for our needs and more to
spare for others.
Santosh is one of the 10 Yam-Niyam. It is not a passive defeatist
stance. It involves making full use of what we have for the larger
good. Mother Teresa tells of a heart warming story. She had taken food
to a hungry family. The lady thanked her and then took half the food
to her neighbor. When Mother asked her what she had done with half the
food, she said, "I cannot eat all of it when I know my neighbor is
also hungry." This is Santosh.
Ganoba

I LOVE YOU
I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO HURT U, OR HARM U
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN DONE FOR YOUR GOOD
I AM THE MOTHER OF ALL YOUR EMOTIONS
ITS DUE TO ME THAT YOU SEE WHAT YOU SEE
I AM, THEREFORE YOU ARE
YOU WOULD FIND ME EVERYWHERE
YET YOU WONT BE ABLE TO FEEL ME THROUGH THESE HUMAN SENSES
I HAVE NOT EVEN GIVEN YOU THE POWER TO UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY WHO I AM
JUST ENJOY LIVING AND LIVE ENJOYINGLY
I WILL BE THERE WITH YOU FOREVER
YOUR ONLY LOVE
GOD

no one knows what they r running for
just running
blinded by some petty issue
not seeking anything permanent
finding reasons to excuse ourselves from solutions
looking for more complexities
no family
no love
just something which no one has seen
which no one has ever got
killing looting hurting betraying
has human become so fond of blood
i pity myself
for being a company to such souls
i find difficulty to find myself in this filth
suffocated..
caged..
buried..

a million things
millions of thoughts
zero action
zero effort
a few things
very very few thoughts
100% action
100% efforts
this is the life i wana live.

dont wana reason out now
i know already wat i did was for good
dont wana ask anything
no complains
no grudges
no expectations
n no explanations
just remain happy
yes i did wanted it to make ideal
but now i want to make it eternal
i will, coz i know ur still there, with me
doesnt matter if i cant see u or hear u
i can feel u
i can drowse in ur presence
this alone wud take me to a higher level of knowing myself
thank you..for giving me this way..

main bhool jau tumhen
ab yahi munasib hai
main bhool jau tumhen
ab yahi munasib hai
magar bhulana bhi chahu to kis tarah bhoolu
ki tum to phir bhi haqeeqat ho koi khwab nahin
yaha to dil ka ye alam hai kya kaho
bhula saka na ye vo silsila
jo tha bhi nahi
wo ek khayal jo awaz tak gaya hi nahi
wo ek baat jo main keh nahi saka tumse
wo ek rabt jo ham mein kabhi raha hi nahi
mujhe hai yaad wo sab jo kabhi hua hi nahi
agar ye haal hai dil ka to koi samjhaye
tumhe bhulana bhi chahu to kis tarah bhoolu
ki tum to phir bhi haqeeqat ho koi khwaab nahin

its too dark to walk in here
but dont worry, ill keep walking
no matter if you cant pull me out of this right now
i know that you are in dark too
ill keep walking till the time you find light
there are some pot holes, some ditches
but it wouldnt spoil my purity
it can harm my physical image though
but thats not all no?
i know, in our relationship, this image doesnt matter
i know that people around u,want u to look at the image only
but in the long run, we would win
ill wait..ill wait chia, for you to realize
i know u will..bcoz i know u more than u

I am following you God
I cant see you
I cant hear you anymore
People doubt even your presence
But im depending on you for my life
It wont matter if you take it nowhere
It wont matter if i get nothing
What have i got anyways from anybody
I feel that you exist
Because silence n emptiness is all we get, whatever we do
N silence, cant be seen, cant be heard
Neither can emptiness
N so are you
I want to follow you
I want to merge with this silence
So as when people speak, i can unhear them
so that my self, get this power of speaking silently
N I want to become a part of this emptiness
So that even if my heart fills with grief
It can remain empty
So that when any emotion takes over
I can still remain numb
I want to be a part of you
So that I can experience life, beyond life.

do you know what you have done
do you realize the outcome
if not yet
the stage is now set
come n have a look
come n see your own handwritten book
every page would reveal its story
every letter would cry for the lost glory
try to analyze those hidden blood stains
dropped by my weeping eyes, in pain
come n see
those torn pages crumbled, of history
a history which you shared with me
trying to explore the love of eternity
for once come at least
to see the death of your deceit
i gave everything that i had to you
never missed out to do something special for you
but it was so easy for you to just leave
just so easy to murder our relationship, our daughter, whom you never conceived
you never wrote the best of you on on the pages of my life
you would never know my anguish, my internal strife
i still miss you n would always
the hurt you caused would remain with me throughout nigh n days
you might have never understood what you meant to me
n i have no right to even explain what i wanted you to be
God has guided me till now
n He would take me out of this, somehow
i wish you never go through what i have undergone
i wish you never feel heartbroken n torn
thats what i mean when i say i love you
God bless you..

just when i found myself free
you bounded me in chains mysteriously
when i tried to run out
you carved me on the wall to shout
what is it that you want from me
why arent you letting me be
give me silence or ill snatch it
i wont think of any consequence
ill ruin it, damn it
let me be out of the pretence
let me know who i am
let me feel my pain myself
let me stand up without help
dont do me a favor anymore
let me plunge into cynicism
have had enough of "pure"
scare me nomore
with your notions of perfection n idealism
let me face the naked truth
let me enjoy the poisoned fruit

started a new life
set for a new tomorrow
eyes still facing the past
heart still beholding sorrow
walking in madness
throwing hands out of control
pushing away from reality
getting blind to any newer role
just getting along deliberately
being cruel desperately
overwhelmed by pain
feeling naked in the winter rain
breathless
emotionless
hurt
unearthed
yet....moving on in silence
finding self in remembrance

Blinded

My life is moving on
Im not able to cope up
Seems ive lost everything
I don’t know how to keep my hopes up
I‘m realizing the world around me
Totality is what I am trying to see
But minor affairs are devouring my energy
Gradually I am losing my serenity
With every moment passing by
I am more willing to die
I have been blinded in love
My thoughts force me to unnerve
I am unable to see my good
I find it difficult to accept
I have never been the way I should
People used me, deceived me, scammed me,
Plagued my mind, Molested my purity
and now I am left to my destiny
I am blinded
I don’t want to unfold the mystery
I don’t want to make more people a part of the misery
Why can’t I just be
I don’t want to answer anyone
I don’t have any complains
Let me burn in the sun
How can I expect from those who don’t even know me
When my own pushed me to waters in the rising sea
When even my own soul deserted me
And left me lonely
To face the death of this relationship painfully
I see my child dead in this war
My efforts effacing, carving an end to what I always strived for
All the hidden faces have come out of their makeover
Everything is over, my heart cries, everything is now over.

Cruelty or helplessness
I cared for you like my daughter
I cherished you like an angel
You disowned me in laughter
Was it so easy to handle
I still never want to let you down
But why do you treat me like a clown
You have made a mockery of me
You have made our eternal relation a history
What did I not give you
When did I disrespect you
I have been convicted of devaluing my God
I have been convicted of misusing the rights which I sought
I wish I could tell the world without telling
What the relationship was in which we were dwelling
Coz if I tell, I would cause shame to you
I always wished never to let feel the same to you
You are binding me to do what I don’t want to
God, give me the courage, to uphold the dream I pursue
I know now nothing can make things right
I know now, darkness would never give way to eternal light
This night would never end
It might have a new tomorrow
But yesterday won’t be able to ascend
I wish I I could send a hint of my pain across
So that you can realize its not me, its you going through a bigger loss
You are fighting the truth, the serenity
You are yet unaware of the divinity
And when it would dawn over you
It would be too late to begin new
What have you done my beloved?
Why did you be so cruel to our love?

Is baar nahi

Us baar nahi

Phir bhi sharmsaar nahi

Kitne vaado ka sarokar nahi

Kitni kasme sakaar nahi

Soch me raftaar nahi

Shaheedo se vyavhaar nahi

Desh ke prati pyar nahi

Phir bhi bhrashto ki haar nahi

Kya sach me ham laachaar nahi

Kya desh ab bhi khuddar nahi

Bas ab seh sakte ham baar baar nahi

Ab to jag jao, mat kaho ki desh ko darkaar nahi

Lahoo bahane ko karo inkaar nahi

Aapas me karo taqraar nahi

Ban chalo ek, keh do ab bas

Sehen aur bhrashtachaar nahi

Hamari ekta, hamari shanti

Bas ab aur koi vichaar nahi

Is baar nahin..

Is baar nahin
Is baar jab woh choti si bachchi
mere paas apni kharonch le kar aayegi
Main usey phoo phoo kar nahin behlaoonga
Panapney doonga uski tees ko
Is baar nahin

Is baar jab main chehron par dard likha dekhoonga
Nahin gaoonga geet peeda bhula dene wale
Dard ko risney doonga, utarney doonga andar gehrey
Is baar nahin

Is baar main na marham lagaoonga
Na hi uthaoonga rui ke phahey
Aur na hi kahoonga ki tum aankein band karlo,gardan udhar kar lo
main dawa lagata hoon
Dekhney doonga sabko hum sabko khuley nangey ghaav
Is baar nahin

Is baar jab uljhaney dekhoonga,chatpatahat dekhoonga
Nahin daudoonga uljhee door lapetney
Uljhaney doonga jab tak ulajh sake
Is baar nahin

Is baar karm ka hawala de kar nahin uthaoonga auzaar
Nahin karoonga phir se ek nayee shuruaat
Nahin banoonga misaal ek karmyogi ki
Nahin aaney doonga zindagi ko aasani se patri par
Utarney doonga usey keechad main,tedhey medhey raston pe
Nahin sookhney doonga deewaron par laga khoon
Halka nahin padney doonga uska rang
Is baar nahin banney doonga usey itna laachaar
Ki paan ki peek aur khoon ka fark hi khatm ho jaye
Is baar nahin

Is baar ghawon ko dekhna hai
Gaur se
Thoda lambe wakt tak
Kuch faisley
Aur uskey baad hausley
Kahin toh shuruat karni hi hogi
Is baar yahi tay kiya hai

-Prasoon Joshi

you never understood me,
you never understood what i wanted to be.
you would never understand, that what i did, was for your own good,
you would never understand my sacrifice, of myself, for no good,
atleast by my sacrifice, i made you realize,
that you are not caged, you're still a bird,
though you may feel won,
but actually its me who won,
what i wanted, i have achieved,
i wanted you to be free, to fly in the open sky,
though i have lost you, but im not grieved,
because you have elevated my spirits to a new high,
see, now you can fly..
my tears get dry..when i think...you fly..

im at peace now,
im still the unbeaten knight,
n im not going to let myself burn,
in not going to feel the brunt,
im going to fight,
im going to achieve my rights,
i wont allow myself to starve through those cold nights,
or let myself feel lowly in those dim lights,
let the world know, im alive.
i cant decide my destiny, so what,
i cant predict laws of eternity, so what,
im ready to face the consequences of my actions,
i dont care wrong or right,
im going to fight.
now let the strong wind oppose me,
let the sea knock over me,
im not going to get weak,
im not going to sneak,
ill stand upright.
im ready to face the bellows over me,
im ready to make myself eternally free,
let them know,
im not the same anymore,
i have infinite times more love to give,
and even more broader view of life to live,
my emotions have achieved much heavier voice,
n my beliefs have attained new unreachable heights,
in these shade of bright lights,
im ready to fight.
im ready to keep,
all those memories so deep,
all those moments which elated my life,
of my princess, my beloved wife,
im going to keep her along,
like an eternal song, on my lips,
in my heart, as the best of my friendships,
im going to use it as my might,
keeping it alongside, ill fight.
n im going to win,
im going to erase all those uncommitted sins,
im going to make streangth of my fright,
im going to fight.
i dont need any help,
i dont need wealth,
i dont need to prove to anyone now,
im just going to experiece life my way,
n i wont allow anyone's say,
my family is by my side,
only to them, i will abide,
im going to snatch my rights from life,
im going to fight.
im happy now God is my guide.

war against terror..

well, i do agree that india has somewhat woken up. but i also believe that most of it is due to the fact that media is playing a role in it. we might call it a negative or a positive according to each ones view point. but the fact still remains there only. the problem still remains there only. im here in mumbai right now, but i hardly see any impact on the masses, leaving out some of the NGO's and some TV artists. The TV artists n celebrities might again be doing all this for their own image only. who knows? as far as normal citizens are concerned, they dont have a choice. they have to work. they have to move on. ont the other hand, shouting slogans, or going for peace march alone wont do any thing. one minister reisgning, others taking their responsibilities wont again solve the problem. after all we all are indians. the product of the same system. we have been doing it since long. n most of us, would still continue to adapt to the same standards of living. we have been ingrained with it. recently when a minister made a rude speach for the family members of major unnikrishnan, thw whole media made a hype of it, but what happens when normal people disrepect those who sacrifice their lives on border. we only think of them when they get "shaheed". what a shame on us.untill n unless, everything is reformed from the scratch, this would go on. today, even if one thing is changed, one law modified, it wont make a difference. it has taken a long time to make us this way, n would take a lot more time to bring a change. everything that is happening in India right now, all the revolts, all the protests, are just a way to increase TRP's of some news channels, inspired by the channel themselves. How many people that we know are participating in it? because each one of us is busy following the rituals of the system. Even if the government takes any hard step on this issue, it would just be to increase their own vote bank for the overhead elections. In these circumstances, a common man can do nothing, but lament, to be a part of this society, where a man is so much engrossed in making money name n fame, that nothing else matters. people die, so let them, untill one of our own dies.These governments are just good for making parks, roads, metros, malls etc. they can never run a country.Talking about government, it has become so dirty, that people dont even consider it an option to go into politics. n those who do, are made fun of.our country wouldnt grow to become a nation, untill we, the educated youth, take bold steps. its time for us to form parties n fight elections, rather than depending on those who are hardly bothered about anything except their own tummies. its time for the young generation to take up politics, n give the system a new shape n colour.i dont know what the result of this tragedy would be..i just hope that it lasts long enough so as more tragedies never get space to come up.jai hind.

i know now what the reason is..
but i cant defame you..the way you did..
i am hurt..that u didnt understand me even once..
that u didnt think of me when u needed..
my fault is..that i wanted you to understand..
i was at loss both ways..then why did i choose this stand..
atleast then, i could have been there..
now i cant be there at all..
i wanted something for your betterment..
but instead of lifting you to that level..i had deep fall..
n now, when im in hell..i cant even call you..
but i can never do.. what you did to me..
atleast if not better, you are at the same level that u used to..
im glad even if at my stake..u could achieve your freedom..
i tried so hard for u to achieve it when we were together..
atleast now i can take the credit solely..
thanks anyways..to make my this dream come true..
but what about the others?
you know..our dream daughter has been killed..
our dreams have been killed..
i do feel the pain..
but theres no way in which i could share it with you..
coz if i did, you would feel offended..
i can stay like this..but wont offend you..
i just pray..that you be happy this way..
that you realize this freedom till the end..
i wont come in your life again..