for my feeling called love..

you have been doing it since then. its not at all new. for a thing as pure as love, you turned your heart, and now you cant undo. it doesnt matter to me, if you hurt me. it wont matter to our dreams which were always unreal. in the end it would just matter to you. you are flying to an unreal peak. when you break down, you'll fall down, all through the height, alone. the world which is building your base, actually doesnt even exist. you'll realize it, but it would be too late. i wish i could still protect you, harness you in my love. oh i wish so much..you were there..

a lost friend..

you had been quiet close to me
though we never talked much
without being in your physical touch
i could relate to you as a friend
i could never give or take advice
neither did i remain very nice
but still, that relation was there
unheard, unthought of, unfelt
its today, i realize..
im sorry for not missing you when alive
it wont matter much to many
hardly some would care
may be i would forget too
but i cant forget that you were there
i wish best of luck to you friend
i should have wished it a little earlier
how i feel helpless now, to be so late
sometimes it feels too hard to fight our fate

a feeling..which died..

did you see the moon today
can u hear, his cruel rumble
his blood colored light,can u see
what must he have felt
when my beloved bird was torn apart
when feather by feather, he plucked her beauty
his blood stained teeth, it kills me every time i see
she was flying so gracefully in the sky, so high, so freely
the most beautiful creation of God
how does he care, now that his stomach's full
how could he even think of her purity
he would never know, he killed a million years of my existence
he would never know how she could have changed the eternity

Let me be invisible today
Let me be a ghost
An evil ghost may be
I wana hurt n be hurt
I don’t want to care about anyone
I don’t want to cure my injuries
I want to realize that even I have an individuality
If its end, then let it be
If its disgrace then let it be
I want to succumb to my own destiny
Let me experience the naked brutality
If my experiences are short of life, then so it be
Let me renounce this fake identity n wear transparency
Just for once, let me know what it takes to be me

which is the right way
what have i got to do
standing in the midst of sludge
which way should i pursue
am i not capable enough
am i growing frail
where did i make mistakes
where did my intuitions fail
may be one day i would realize
it wasn't me taking decisions
somebody planned a plot with precision
im just playing my role
i was never complete without you
it was you who made me whole

the leaves on that tree have started to fall
the roots though are firm
but it wont grow anymore tall
its not it's end term
it has to live a lot
i have started seeing its pain now
n my helplessness to help is clear n sought
it has been like this since ages
its toughness was admired but pain was never thought
its become it's habit now
loneliness has become friends, n family fought
teardrops dried up, feelings melted
its been numb since, debile and rot
i wish i could become its strength
i wish i could tell him..
papa..i love u a lot..

agar ant hi hai is kahani ka ant
to phir yu hi sahi
agar sach hi hai wo sab mannghadant
to phir yu hi sahi
agar takdeer hi hai sikudan
to phir yu hi sahi

ive lost my identity to dust
the pillars which made me strong
are no longer standing tall in my honour
i have hollowed them to shame
now i know i am not going to stand long
the ground beneath has sunken in
theres not enough anymore in my name
the time has gone, the grace period expired
ive pushed the limits too much
n yet, nothing has been etched on the charts of history
i wana be left to ruthlessness and pity