ye kaun nahi janta ki chand bas subah tak hi rahega..
phir bhi kyu raat bhar sirf usi ko hi takte rehte hain..
is chand ki band aakho me jaane kitne khwaab chhupe honge..
par phir bhi uski zindgi me bas andhere bhatakte rehte hain..
kyu kabhi mann nahi maanta..
kyu roz usi ke saye me mere dard sisakte hain..
ye kaun nahi janta ki chand bas subah tak hi rahega..
phir bhi kyu raat bhar sirf usi ko hi takte rehte hain..

Raat

Chupchaap si raat apne chaand ki akho se andhere ko taak rahi hai.shayad uska koi lamha kho gaya hai.mook darshak bane sehme sitare bhi kaapte sannate sun rahe hain.koi apna shayad juda ho gaya hai.akho ki garm boondo se jalta sagar pattharo ko peet kar apna dard baha raha hai.koi guzra mausam khwabo ki narm ret apne aasuo se bhigo gaya hai.kuch sookhe daag liye ye zindgi andhero me apna astitva chhupati phir rahi hai.shayad koi farishta apna dard in saanso me piro gaya hai..khwab tha shayad kisi aur ka..jo un palo ki yaado me apni bebasi dubo gaya hai..

thot

U dnt even need to turn around to c d black..
Its thr infront of your eyes everywhere..
Some grey smoke of burnt dreams..
Some vaccuumed spaces n distant people..
succumbing to my memories..
Some dark closets of dreadful cold painful bloody memories..
An envelop of dark clouds encapsulating deadly..
most horrifying faces..
Darkness eating up every ray of light before its even born..
A black future..d end of eternity..d end of nthngnes..

by Gunilla Norris

It is a paradox that we encounter so much internal noise
when we first try to sit in silence.

It is a paradox that experiencing pain releases pain.

It is a paradox that keeping still can lead us

so fully into life and being.

Our minds do not like paradoxes. We want things

To be clear, so we can maintain our illusions of safety.

Certainty breeds tremendous smugness.

We each possess a deeper level of being, however,

which loves paradox. It knows that summer is already

Growing like a seed in the depth of winter. It knows

that the moment we are born, we begin to die. It knows

that all of life shimmers, in shades of becoming--

that shadow and light are always together,

the visible mingled with the invisible.

When we sit in stillness we are profoundly active.

Keeping silent, we hear the roar of existence.

Through our willingness to be the one we are,

We become one with everything.

R u lonesome tonyt..do u miss me tonyt..

Ye sali zindgi

I have probably become so fond of this night that when i see inside myself,i dont see anything apart from darkness.a dark ruined life.a bleeding tattered soul.broken pieces of dreamz.n a totally disgraced me..n yet..i am alive.

Happy Birthday..

moments go by, seasons pass away those trees standing tall and strong..quietly turned grey where leaves took years to fall and whose shelter shadowed many dismayed those trees once tall and strong..quietly turned grey whose vicinity used to be a celebration whose presence enlightened each day those trees fighting their destiny..quietly turned grey they fall..they weep they become hollow and weak dried up and sucked up..for standing tall..slowly painfully turned grey yet life moves on and sadly reminds us each day the love and care with which the trees were made quietly turned grey the smoke, the suffocation the burns and its remains wish..could be perished with the tree..quietly burning each day..till our grey ashes are burnt away.. n yet in its memory aching hearts would one day bleed to say if the tree would have been there..this would have been the most special day.. to a dead tree..from a few dead memories.. happy birthday

Her eyes were closed,but a smal droplet was twinklng around d corner.tht didnt afect d moon though,but thr was slightly less grace tht usd to adorn her.d silenc too ws scared n shivrng,d nyt ws damp for her pains.every1 knew he wnt come bak again.he ws gone forever.leavng her behind wth d everlastng darkness.a faint sound of a calm ocean,which lost its roar in respect, to her feelngs.jst sum splashs of watr,washng her irrepairable sins.d whole eternity lamenting for few more breaths she was left with to breathe.is thr nethng left to care for?is thr nethng left to feel?

Band hi rehne do akhe..
bhale hi toote khwabo ke tukde kitne bhi chubhte rahe..
Kahi firse kisi parchhai ko dekh kar mann ghabra na jae..
Kahi firse koi nukila patthar uchhal kar chot na pahuncha jae..
Kitne din,kitni raato..se bhagenge..kaha tak jaenge..
Kamsekam akho se sagar chhalkenge to nahi..jab kadam ladkhadaenge..
Band hi rehne do akho ko..kahi koi ummeed ki kiran akho ko lal na kar de..
Kahi kisi ke mann ki aag akho me dhuan na bhar de..
Wakt ke kadmo ki thokare ab aur nahi khani..
Yaado ki dhool me ghisatkar ab nahi zindgi bitani..
Garam akhe naram palko ko jab tak pighla na de..
Kamsekam kuchh pal band akho ke andhere kaid kar le..
Band hi rehne do akhe..
bhale hi toote khwabo ke tukde kitne bhi chubhte rahe..

dhuan ..

Bas dhuan hai.jalta dhuan.
Meri gunguni palko se pighalta dhuan.
ek udas sham sa dhalta dhuan.
bin soye anginat raate chalta dhuan.
khwabo ke bikhre tukdo par fisalta dhuan.
dard ki chattano se takrakar uchhalta dhuan.
bas dhuan hai.jalta dhuan.
beete lamho ki chita se nikalta dhuan.
mann ke sailabo me gir gir kar sambhalta dhuan.
kuch ansuni cheekhe sunta dhuan.
kuch sookhi boonde bunta dhuan.
mere chand ki parchhai se lipta hua.
ek ek pal tanhai ka ginta hua.
bas dhuan hai..jalta dhuan

Its nyt again
d same old dreadful phase
Moist air,but not a single drop of rain
Murderous solitude and darkness
Bleeding memories and floating pain
Numb moon and a known disguised face
Emptiness.. all around
But a heart full of disgrace
I miss those times mom,wen I used to hug u n cry
Its been long my eyes slept during such nights
Im lost mom,hide me in u once again
This world kills me,i can no more endure this pain
I must have done sumthing terribly wrong
Which is why u brought me to life
Please help me sleep for sumtym mom,i dont wish nemore to b alive

bas kisi raat ki mohtaj
hai zindgi
kuchh toote hue khwab
hai zindgi
nam palko me kayi bikhri yaade
ek jali hui kitaab
hai zindgi

once lived a green tree
happy and young
but a leaf
thought 'ts been caged
broke away
resisting the flowing wind
flew north n south
accustomed and habituated
the pain now
gradually sinking in
breath gradually dampening
twas alone and lost
dried and broke
what has it lost
what has it lost..

there was a face in my dream
a face i was well aware of
it looked dreadful
blood stained
as if its the most cruel face on earth
it was ugly and painful
and it had a glimpse of the entire burnt history
the remains of those burns were still on the face
melting down slowly
there were two silent eyes soulless and numb
they had no complains, and no expectations
just balls of stone
gazing without a blink
hiding inside a guilt feeling
a treacherous murderous character
God of emotional slaughters
theres no way that I can now prove my truth and purity
I wish I had not seen my real self so consciously

she was here again
this time disguised in white
as if i dont know her
as if she could hide herself
from my sight
even if she doesnt let me know
it shows from the warm drops
around the eyes
every time she comes
it makes me realize
however she may try to hide
her darkness peeps from inside
and encapsulates me
in the deapth of
her silent and serene night
when we walk over the thorns of emotions
bleeding in pain
sinking in,to become a parasite
but then she just leaves
leaving me and my burns behind
it grows each moment
making numb with every stride
in the end just a few stained marks remain
in the emptiness where i reside

koi kya kisi ki chita jalaega

jeevan k panne to kabke jalkar raakh ho chuke

kabhi jin chitron par hame naaz hota tha

aaj wo sare din jal kar raat ho chuke

bas do palke hain jo ab bhi aakash me taron ki jhalak ki pyasi hain

shayad koi tara kisi din dharti par bhi gir jae

un bechari palkon ko bhi kahan pata hai ki akhein to kab ki beh chuki
bas ek akhri saans baaki hai

par afsos hai ki ye chand lamho ko sametne ke liye bhi kafi nahi

I saw her today
Her face had swollen hard
Her voice was shivering badly
N yet she wore a faint smile
I knew wat was going on in her heart
Its really difficult to sumtyms b wat u r not
N its helpless coz there isnt a way
There wud b people pointing fingers at u
As if u have done somethng u never even thought of
But uv already started long way back
N theres nothng which u can do to undo
Wat hapens, wen u want,yet u cant become blind to ur own feelings
Wen a day comes, n suddenly life takes away everything by surprise
Knowingly or unknowingly u become a victim of ur own cruelty
I did understand her
But this is d least I cud do
Life is not dependent on feelings
But its just some feelings which I cud ever give to you

Kal kuchh palo ne mere yaado ke shamiyane me dastak di
Kuchh nam, kuchh meethe, kuch bheene,aur kuch lal rang se lipte hue
Andar bulaya, saraha, pyar se unhe panah di
Unme se kuchh pal ab tak dard se tadap rahe the
Un palo ki aanch ab tak bujhi nahi thi
Ye wahi pal the jinhone kuchh zindgiya jala di thi
Jane kyu kuchh zindgiya bhulayin nahi ja pati
Jane kyu in palo ki lapte unhe nigal nahi jati
Rakh ho chuke ehsaso ki kashish ab tak in palo ki tapish me nazar ati hai
Meri raat na jane kyu in palo ki takiya ban jati hai
Kab hogi wo raat jab andhera savera ban jaega
Kabtak yuhi mera ateet meri yaado k shamiyane ko jalaega
Kuchh kadam to aise bhi chal le meri zindgi
Jiski yaad se zakhmi na ho koi bhi aane wali khushi

i feel so lost n helpless
every time i hear your voice
soon it wont sound painful
and the stormy winds would pass by
you wont lose anything
n i never had anything to lose
i couldnt even tell you what i owe you
before you decided what not to choose
it was just me from the starting till the end
who failed to comprehend
lying and playing with mud
it was me always who couldnt understand
its not the earth or earthly things
its about the soul and the feelings
but now it has been carved on the palm of my hands
i was a stone,and now want to be the dust
for the pain you went through couldnt make me bleed enough
all i want to wish now is my breath no longer lasts
for its time for me to repay for my past
wonder if i knew you ever
still you were my own, but now no more

They say its a happy new year
But wat has changed
Sumtyms it really kills me
I dont understand y every1 has gone so insane
Who needs a new year,wasnt d last one painful enough?
There r people dying on d roads,does ne1 bothers to feel their pain?
I just dont want to hear my inner silence
It screams n mourns every second
It burns my soul alive and bleeds
Does it matter its hell or heaven
What have I made of me
N y is it me who wants to care
It chokes my heart,i can never show how much it means
How much I need u,d luv that uv never seen
I dont wana dream about a happy life anymore
Im just happy drowning in this pain
I dont need blessings or wishes anymore
I wana silently die today in this rain